It's 6:15am and I just finished meditating. It's the ideal way for me to start my day. I find it can be so easy for me to disconnect from the 'process'. My mind always wants to move faster. It wants to do enough things to not be bored. I always wonder why being bored is such a bad thing? Why is it something that my mind would run away from?
I think boredom is something I am getting better at embracing each day. I don't like to work on many things any more. I prefer to strip things down to their essentials and try to do one thing right before moving on to the next. These days if I don't feel a sense of boredom, it's a sign that I am doing too much. This is really hard because there's always so many good reasons to add just one little small thing. I'm far from being good at this but the more I meditate, the more I develop a heightened awareness of what is around and within in me. And the more I develop that heightened awareness, the more sensitive I am to what is essential and what is not.
I meditated on a koan today, "the whole earth is medicine". It's something I keep coming back to now and I really like it. I've mentioned it in my other entries. It's very difficult to describe, but once I think about this I feel myself widen into nothing (or widen into whatever everything else is). I feel like a small part of everything else. It's a safe feeling. Some experiential data that comes through is, "if the whole earth is medicine, then there's nothing to do, there's nowhere to go, and nothing to worry about. You are already part of this earth so just be yourself".